I used to think emotional pain was worse than physical pain, but I have come to the conclusion that I was far from being right. Physical pain is far worse. It hurts even more than heartbreak, I bet.
I've barely been sleeping lately because I've been really sick. I was supposed to be back in school this week, but they pushed it back. I won't be coming back till after spring break. I'm glad I didn't go back this week because ever since Monday I've been throwing up everything (and nothing, meaning bile). It's horrible. It really hurts my back in the process, also. I'm leaving for Delaware in six and a half hours, and I'm really scared for some reason. I'm afraid of how sick I'll be on the car ride up. But mostly, I'm afraid the doctor is going to tell me bad news, like that I'm not healing right.
Please pray that they give me nothing but good news. And pray that I start feeling better soon. Please. I really can't deal with this much longer. I'm trying to be strong, though. That's the best I can do from this point. After all, it could be a lot worse. I should consider myself lucky at least.